I want to behave..For you.

I want to be the greatest that have ever set your eyes,

But why?

why must i ruin the very good impression that i had at first.

Why must everything happened so fast.. Too fast for me to think whether its right or wrong.

I still remember the days when you look up to me like someone whom you take as a role model.

A skillful skateboarder,

An awesome composer,

Good looking and so on.. but then as months goes by, I really had high hopes for the both of us but ive ruined it. Ive made you gone through times that were so tough for you. ITS MY FAULT.

Ive made you went through times that you almost gave up on me.. ITs ME WHOME YOU'RE SUPPOSE TO BLAME.

I wonder why i did that. I felt remorseful, I regretted.

Ive spoilt a life of such beautiful lady like you. I didn't meant to. I hate human natures.

One moment i may be a gentlemen the next thing i hurled out vulgarities to you.. imagine that. YOU !!. How could this happen to me. Ive made my mistake. I got nowhere to run.. How could this happen to me. Im not the person you thought i would be.. Im not the person you thought i would take you for advantage. NO.

Sometimes,The things that ive done wrong. I punish myself without letting you know. But that is still WRONG !!.. when will i ever do it RIGHT just for YOU..

I love it when you look up to me as someone you could rely on, I loved it when you praised me for the arts of creativity ive done but sometimes i did something bad but yet you still forgives me. I've owed you alot .. I can't bare to leave you knowing that i owed you soo much. I still believe that im a man with dignity and i will answer to my call of duty to become the person that shines out of your life.

If only i didn't set atleast ONE bad example and im very sure you could trust me in having friends that you classified as friends, Im very sure you could trust me in going out with my friends and much more benefits i would get. Im very sure you would trust me like hell.. But NNNOOO.. I didn't do ONE mistakes. NOR TWO !!.. but ALOT !!.. pretty much ALOT !!! You scolded me even.. You shouted at me. Sometimes you might not believe it but besides that you love me. IT also meant that you dn't trust me.. I mean, Look at it.. Once i was outside with my friends skating. I asked for your permission for me to get back home one hour later. Instead of thinking like oh, He wants to skate. Let it be.. Let him have his fun.. But NNOO.. You went like . oh, You wanna enjoy with your friends uhh, See all the hawt chix and all. hug them blablabla.

See, It also simply meant that you don't trust me .. OH, AND IM THE BLAME FOR ALL OF THIS. iTS TRUE !!!.. ITS ME EVERYBODY !!.. I BLOODY DIDN'T LISTENED TO HER AND HERE I AM. THE CAUSE OF ALL TROUBLES YOU HAD.... Dn't deny ..

uuhhh, Does it feels good to just express your heart out in this blog.

Understand this.

Some mistakes in your life cannot be erased and may leave a permeanent mark for the rest of your life, If you are a person with honour,dignity and will face your shameness with full of bravery. You will definitly not take your mistakes lightly.. For people like these. Mistakes for them are something which they cannot afford.. But those who careless about their own self. For them. Mistakes are in the past. What has been done leave it there and move on.. So which one are you?.

(This post is not intended to be related to those who are alive or dead, It is merely just a relationship story that certain humans know.. I would like to apologies if i take up most of your time. Now, GO STUDY !!)